There are two truths about me that often find themselves in competition.
- I am a dreamer and schemer
- I struggle to commit to things for the long haul
According to the Myers-Briggs 16 Personality Types, I’m also an ENFP, which I’m told goes some way to explaining these traits that hold themselves in tension. When I first read a summary of my personality type (“The Campaigner”, apparently) the first two sentences smacked me in the face and I felt a tad less like an anomaly.
Yep, that’s me. I spend half my time imagining all of the wonderful things I could do with my life, and the other half struggling to turn off Netflix.
This leads me to a third truth, the part of me that has probably suffered most from my lack of drive.
3. I love to write (and I’m actually pretty good at it.)
The ins and outs of my strained relationship with writing is probably the subject for a whole other post, but basically, where I am now, I know I could do it if I set my mind to it. I know I could write a book, or a collection of poetry, or essays, or articles (or, or, or…) But again I’m left with my old friends, Lack of Commitment and Too Many Damn Options.
Somehow I find myself over-commited and under-commited all at once. Over-enthusiastic and under-enthusiastic. Insanely driven and ridiculously lazy. Ugh.
That brings me here. A blog.
I’ve decided I need to write. It’s too much a part of who I am (and probably who I ought to be) to be ignored. So I’ll write stuff here. I envisage it being a lot of word vomit, maybe about things I’ve read, placed I’ve been or semi-interesting thoughts that bump around in my head. Half of it might be interesting, or helpful, or insightful.
So if you’re here, hi! If you ever come back, you’re a champ and will have already shown me up on the commitment front. If I don’t turn up again, I might need a nudge or a reminder (see truth 2).
Talk soon! (I hope.)